There are moments in every programmer's journey that feel like cosmic alignmentâwhen fog lifts, pieces click, and suddenly universe makes sense in three lines of code. For me, that moment came on a particularly scattered Tuesday afternoon, when my ADHD brain finally grasped elegant mystery of recursion.
I'd been wrestling with recursive thinking for months. Every tutorial, every explanation felt like trying to catch mist with a fishing net. Then, like finding a perfect sand dollar after hours of beachcombing, I discovered three lines that changed everything.
Lost in Fog of Self-Reference
Picture me: coffee growing cold, multiple browser tabs open (thanks, ADHD), and a growing sense that recursion was some kind of programmer's secret handshake I'd never learn. Every explanation felt circularâwhich, ironically, was exactly point I was missing.
Questions That Haunted Me
- ~ How can a function call itself without creating an infinite loop?
- ~ When does recursion actually stop?
- ~ Why do people say it's "elegant" when it looks like magic to me?
My scattered ADHD mind kept getting distracted by meta-ness of it all. A function that calls itself? It felt like looking into two mirrors facing each otherâinfinite reflections disappearing into incomprehension.
Three Lines That Changed Everything
I was scrolling through a random GitHub repository (classic ADHD rabbit hole) when I stumbled upon this deceptively simple factorial function:
def factorial(n):
if n <= 1: return 1 # escape hatch
return n * factorial(n - 1) # magic
Three lines. That's it. But in that moment, staring at those three lines, something in my brain clicked like a lighthouse beam cutting through fog.
Moment of Seeing
Suddenly, I wasn't seeing infinite loopsâI was seeing trust. function trusted itself to solve a smaller version of same problem. It was like watching tide work: each wave does same thing, but each one is slightly different, and together they accomplish something much larger.
Recursive Flow (As I Finally Understood It)
beauty wasn't in self-referenceâit was in faith. Each function call trusted that someone smaller would handle their part, and there was always that crucial base case acting like a lighthouse, providing foundation for everyone else to build upon.
Why My ADHD Brain Finally Got It
"Recursion is like having a conversation with yourself across timeâeach version of you handles one small piece, trusting that past and future versions will handle theirs."
My ADHD brain, which usually struggles with linear thinking, suddenly found recursion natural. It matched how I actually thinkâjumping between levels of abstraction, seeing patterns within patterns, trusting that details would work themselves out.
ADHD Recursion Advantages
- ~ Pattern Recognition: We see same structure at different scales
- ~ Abstract Thinking: We're comfortable with concepts that reference themselves
- ~ Non-Linear Processing: We don't need to trace every step to understand flow
How Three Lines Opened Infinite Doors
Once I understood that simple factorial, programming world exploded with possibilities. Tree traversals, dynamic programming, divide-and-conquer algorithmsâthey all became conversations with myself across different scales of same problem.
Tree Problems
"How do I process this tree? Easyâprocess current node, then trust recursion to handle subtrees."
Divide & Conquer
"Split problem in half, trust recursion to solve each half, then combine results."
Dynamic Programming
"Break it into subproblems, solve smallest ones first, build up to answer."
Backtracking
"Try one path, if it doesn't work, back up and trust recursion to try other paths."
Deeper Lesson
Those three lines taught me more than recursionâthey taught me about trust in elegant simplicity. Sometimes most profound solutions look deceptively simple on surface. Sometimes answer isn't in adding more complexity, but in finding right way to trust process.
"In recursion, as in life, you don't need to see whole staircase to take first step. You just need to trust that each step will reveal next one."
â A thought that came to me during a Waldport beach walk
Now, whenever I encounter a complex problem, I ask myself: "What's smallest version of this problem I can solve? How can I break this down so that each piece trusts others to do their part?"
It's become more than a programming techniqueâit's a way of thinking about collaboration, project management, and even personal growth. Break big challenges into smaller ones, establish clear base cases, and trust process.
For Fellow Programmers Still Lost in Recursive Fog
What's simplest version of this problem you can solve without recursion?
Assume function works for smaller inputsâfocus on how to use that result.
Work through factorial(3) by handâsee how each call builds on others.
Handle current level, trust recursion for rest, always have an escape hatch.
Every programmer has those breakthrough momentsâwhen a concept that seemed impossibly complex suddenly becomes beautifully simple. For me, recursion was that concept, and those three lines were key that unlocked not just algorithmic thinking, but a whole new way of approaching complex problems with trust and elegance.
Sometimes most profound lessons come in smallest packages. Three lines of code. Infinite possibilities. A scattered ADHD brain finally finding its recursive rhythm on Oregon Coast.